Made A Decision
I was never a social drinker. I was an anti-social drinker. - Roger L.
Living Sober Takes Practice
When we have for years turned to mind-altering-chemicals for dealing with life - with alcohol being our big one - we don’t jump ship into sobriety easily. It takes time and practice to become comfortable with the very different high quality lifestyle sobriety offers us.
We PRACTICE these principles in all our affairs.
In the beginning we have no idea how to even live a life without lots of high drama. We will often create situations to produce it just to elevate our comfort level.
We might start fights with our neighbors, gossip at work, shake our fists (or fingers) at other drivers, and angrily exit meetings - with or without leaving tire rubber in the parking lot.
I know this, because I’ve done all of this - and much more. But as long as we don’t drink over any of it, it’s OK. Because we will learn - over time - that a life without high drama contains serenity. And serenity will truly - eventually - become our goal!
Newcomers often speak of the beauty in life they are now just noticing … of the butterfly on the neighbor’s window, the magical full moon, the diamond-like sun-sparkle on sea water … things never noticed when lost in our disease.
But it can become hard to see the butterfly when we pick a fight with our neighbor. Nor will the full moon shine as brightly when sleep eludes us because of that quarrel.
As for that sparkle on the water? Silver quickly turns to pewter when our vision darkens in anger.
So we learn to look at our own behavior.
What happened? Where did I go off track? Was I intolerant, impatient, self-centered, or afraid?
Did my own confused emotions cause this problem to escalate?
These are the kinds of things we learn to identify - and correct - as we trudge along our sober path.
Happier sober lives are built by adopting new attitudes - step by step. When we develop - with practice - the daily use of the 10th step and begin to examine our part in our problems, we're well on our way.
Dr. Bob once said, I don't think we can do anything very well in this world unless we practice it. And I don't believe we do A.A. too well unless we practice it … that was not easy for me, and I assume that it is difficult for everyone else.
Our sobriety is worth the work. If A.A.’s co-founder himself struggled to practice his way into a new life, I don't think we should be too hard on ourselves when we find we may have to struggle a bit now and then, too.
My disease of alcoholism once insisted that I drink whether I wanted to or not. Drinking was the insanity that dominated my life and ruled over my making any healthy choices for myself. My life had become unmanageable. It took A.A. to set me free.
In spite of the great increase in the size and the span of this Fellowship, at its core it remains simple and personal.
Each day, somewhere in the world, recovery begins when one alcoholic talks with another alcoholic, sharing experience, strength, and hope.
Big Book of A.A.
Because A.A. has continued to work for a drunk like me I know it can work for you. I also know you will have a lot of fun along your sober way, because I certainly have!
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